Estrogen Shots

I took my horse to Arizona Equine Medical Centre yesterday to get more tests and x-rays so they could check his problem and schedule him for surgery today. HOWEVER, when they took the x-rays, and looked at them on the computer, they couldn't find ANYTHING wrong. The problem is that the patella was catching on the surrounding bones, thus causing his leg to lock up, until he popped it back into place. Well, all the things that usually cause the patella to catch were normal. His bones didn't have sharp ridges on them, his ligaments weren't loose or torn, his femur and tibia were correctly placed, and his patella was correctly formed and set. The vet said that the problem was that after he had that time off for Christmas and because of his cactus injuries, when I started training him, his muscles, which had lost a lot of mass, reformed too tightly pulling his patella up and causing it to lock. So what I have to do is give him shots of estrogen, which loosen up his muscles, and give him consistent work, which reforms those muscles. SO AWESOME!! So, to fix him, I get to ride him even more than I did before. It really doesn't get any better than that. So I have 10 needles full of estrogen that I get to stab into his neck twice a week. I also decided I'm going to pull somewhat of a prank on Dave Heim and give him a horse sized dose of estrogen in his sleep. That should be interesting. But anyway, my point is that first off, my horse isn't hurt, and the only thing plaguing him will be fixed with consistent exercise. AND it only cost $500 and not $3000, which is most definitely great.

Finally some good news.

And I get to go to my horse show next weekend. Pure joy.

Joy

9 days till school is out. Joy.

People will accept your ideas much more readily if you tell them that Benjamin Franklin said it first.

For Kyle Wade

This blog is reposted from myspace for the sole enjoyment of Kyle Wade, Kyle, I think you are awesome (most of the time):

P.S. I'm glad that you are now my friend :)


Three weeks ago my horse, Tucker, fell into a barrel cactus and then in recoil jumped into a prickly pear. By the time I got back to the barn he couldn't walk and had to have emergency surgery, which cost a lovely $334. I spent the better part of not just two hours, or two days, but two weeks trying to get all the cactus out of his leg. And there's still some in there :( Then, after he had been on stall rest for a week and a half of which I had to go out twice a day and give him medication and rewrap his leg, I put him in the pasture and not 10 seconds, literally 10 seconds, as I watched helplessly, he got kicked in the leg by another horse. I'm standing in the middle of the pasture in disbelief yelling at the other horse, ....YOU HAVE GOT TO BE KIDDING ME!!!...I don't think he speaks English, dumbass horse. So then I spent the better part of the next week nursing my horse's front leg because it had swollen to twice its size. So finally, today, I was able to start riding him. With Christmas break added on, he hasn't been ridden for almost 2 months :(. He isn't completely healed, but he's ready to start some very light exercise. So today, which has just gotten progressively worse and worse, I went out to the barn to relax and ride. We had a great ride, trotted around a bit, gave him some grain, cleaned up my tack....and just as I was about to put him back in his pasture, the owner of another one of the horses in his pasture came up to me and said that his horse had a lung infection.
"A lung infection, is it contagious?" I asked, in a bit of hysterics.
"Yeah, it's really contagious; tons of horses in Tucson have it."
"Are you JOKING me??!?!?"
So I took my horse and put him at the other end of the property. I seriously was ready to cry...I don't even know what I'm going to do. I just have to sit around and wait for Tucker to get sick or not....
I'm tired and frustrated and distressed and pitying myself. Oh, and then I read a mean blog about me that made me cry, and now I'm just really pissed. So, I'm going to go eat a bowl of cereal in the shower. Sometimes, life just sucks, a lot.

Yes.

Yes.

Today

Sometimes, you just wake up and the first things that happen set the course for the whole day. I don't know if today is going to be a good day or a bad day, or if I can make it what I want. But so far, I have a lot on my mind and kinda just want school to be over. And to be honest, even though I know Eagle Lake would be incredible, and it would be a fulfilling summer working there, going home and just working a stupid job and writing and riding all summer sounds kinda great. I could go to Dave Matthews with Todd and finally have lunch with Dan and maybe be artistic or something. Then I'd get to see Christa before she leaves for London, and I'd get to see my whole family at her graduation party.

I got a B+ on my english paper. Good? I suppose, but once I revise it hopefully I'll get an A.

I don't really have much else to say.

A Few Things That Happened

A couple interesting things.

First, Alex actually apologized to me yesterday for all the deuschbag things that he did when we dated. It was a nice thing for him to do.

Second, I got to see Bonar, which was awesome, 'cause he's fun, and I never get to see him. We had an lovely dinner at North with like 20 people. We got to dress up pretty and eat overpriced food, and it was good times.


Third, Christine is like the bestest friend ever, for no particular reason, she just watches out for me and she's gorgeous!


Fourth, I still haven't heard back from Eagle Lake after my interview on Monday. The lady said two weeks, but I'm getting impatient.

Fifth, today is the last day I get to ride my horse before he gets his surgery and is off for 3 months...sad...and depressing :(

Sixth, and most importantly, I get to move into the Casa in like 2 weeks!!! Yay!!!


This is what it will be like in the Casa next year - take note of the confetti, we are having a good time.

Life goes rolling along, and we wait. Impatience: Waiting in a hurry.

We pray...that you may ahve great endurance and patience, joyfully giving thanks. Col 1:10-12

Easter Pictures

Here are some pictures of me and my family when I went to visit Indiana at Easter :)

My preshie family after Easter service before we went out to eat. I got to have two rootbeers because I'm a biggie girl now.


Making Easter eggs. My brother is in whitie tighties, funny.


Out to eat ice cream, I'm pretty sure my little brother cried because he wanted his sprinkles on top and not mixed in.


Some families play card games, some families go to the park, other families play board games, my family, we wrestle.

My dad beat everyone up.


Yay, Indiana, I'm going back in three weeks! 

GAH

I found out today, after my vet reviewed my x-rays, that my horse has to have a $3,000 surgery next Wednesday in Phoenix. I don't even know what I'm going to do.

Thank You

I stand before a crown of ten thousand
Nations, millions, bow before your throne
But disavow your grace
....................Time and time again.

Streets paved with gold we walk
To you, hands engraved with names
Of those depraved and watch
....................Angels entertain.

Our lost souls find salvation in the promise
Of your refined glory, blood shed
As they bind your hands and feet only
....................Death remains.

Heart of darkness washed white as snow
Through the sacrifice of one, the son
Of the Most High, for this we cry
....................Thank you, amen.

California

Tuesday March 7:
"I'm afraid my disastrous test paid off with a lovely grade of D. And not the 68% kind of D, no, it was the 60% kind of D. The kind that if it were one percent lower it would be an F. I really don't know what to think of this. I don't think I've ever even gotten a B on a test...so this was a nice awakening to the joys of failure. In fact, the class average was an F. An F. The average."

Sunday April 9:
"My stats test was so easy a kindergartner could do it. I got a 90/90, bitch."

I went to California this weekend which was awesome. Volleyball on the beach, laying out, chilling with people I haven't seen in forever. It was like a greatness reunion. As in, we are all greatness and we came together at Newport Beach to celebrate it. I also got to have In-and-Out and TK Burgers everyday, oh and ice cream everyday, which was almost like heaven. Christine ate a half gallon of Starbucks ice cream for lunch on Saturday. She is awesome.

Eagle Lake

I got a message in a bottle today; it was in the form of an email. Eagle Lake, a kids camp based in Eagle Lake, Colorado (read, the middle of the Rockies) needs a horse camp couselor for the summer, it's their only position still open. I sent in my application, and I have an interview on Monday. So most hopefully I won't be stuck in Tucson for the summer. And I get to play worship at Crusade tonight. And my horse got x-rays this morning so we will finally get to the root of his stifle problem. And I got a 95% on my accounting test. And I have a horse show the beginning of May. Life is good.

October 10

What is the opposite of joy?
"Sadness."
And the opposite of depression?
"Elation."
And how about the opposite of woe?
"I believe that would be giddy up."

Pink Elephants

I was sitting in class today thinking of all the stuff I have to do this week before I leave for Orange this weekend and Indiana next weekend and was literally going crazy. At one point, I had to leave class and go outside and just sit on a step and pray for a bit of peace and calm. I'm just really nervous about the two tests I have this week; if I do well on them, I'm set for the rest of the semester, however, if I do poorly on them, I've pretty much screwed my scholarship. So, lots of pressure. At the break (because my class is three hours long) I went up to my professor and told him I couldn't concentrate and I was going crazy and asked if I could leave class early. He let me, which is awesome because I came home and wrote an essay for my other English class. Now I'm wasting time writing a blog when I should be studying for my accounting test.

My ENTIRE family is in Cancun, and I'm stuck in Tucson stressing about the means of two independed or dependent variables making up a sample size that describes the Z-value of a proportion. Fun.